I know I promised lots of fics(for mellochocolat), but I just didn't have the time nor the inspiration. And just as I have a little time to sit and write a cute fluffy one - shot, my angst muse kicks in. Sorry. I like this but I'm leaving it to the judgement of my friends. Do you think I should cross-post it and where?

That's it. I just want to hide in a hole somewhere where no one can find me and cry. 
There's been many things that went wrong today.
I tried to fix the thing with my modem, and I only screwed things up. Then I tried to change my password, but my computer didn't want to accept it. Then I get the news that my aunt is in the hospital, and it's serious. And we celebrated her birthday yesterday...
Then a friend came over. I had to act all cheerful and happy. We invited a couple of my other friends to come with us , but they didn't want to. Then a 'friend' I thought I had clearly stated she wants nothing to do with me. And everyone just.......abandoned me. My father called and I figured out that he never cared for me. My mother is trying to make me feel guilty for something I hadn't done just to make her feel better because someone is equally miserable as her. She's telling me I don't know how to fight for myself, that my friends had all the right to abandon me, that I've isolated myself from the world, that I'll be all alone in the end. Then I mess things up with everything I try to post because I'm so stressed out. I almost threw up earlier... And I'm crying right now. When I'm sad, I write poetry. It makes me relax and calm down. Mostly, it's terrible poetry, but I just need to get this out of my system.

This is written for the person I wish all the worst things in life.

Words to describe my mood: misery, sadness, sorrow, hate, depression.
I hate my life right now. I wish I could kill myself. But, I've gotten through worse things in life, I would get through this. I know I have the will to do it. I only don't know when it will happen.

Just like the title says. More lyrics. I never actually heard this song, but the lyrics were so good that I had to put this here.

Enjoy!

Title : Words I couldn't say
Artist : Rascal Flatts

 P.S. Does anyone have this song? Or does anyone know where I can download this song for free?

I said that I'll explain my name. So here it is:

Felina-cat-like

Valdis-Goddess of the dead.

So, my name would probably mean 'cat-like goddess of the dead'.

But, I suppose that you are not interested in that.

I gathered a list of names that I with their meanings. I got this all from the internet, so don't blame me is something isn't right.
All the names are female or unisex.
Don't be surprised if some of the names are a bit strange.

I was just going through enchanter's memories, when I saw a fic written by wicked pistil. It's called 'Transfer of ownership.'
So, being the curious person that I am, I decided to see what it's about. And I couldn't stop reading. I usually don't read, let alone write, Soubi/Kio. But I got the inspiration and started writing. I didn't think about this, I just went with the flow. I finished it in one breath, then read it. And I couldn't believe what was there. It wasn't crappy, and unemotional like my usual stuff is. I really liked it. This is written from Kio's POV.
It's dedicated to enchanter and wicked pistil for being such wonderful authors. I hope to reach your level of writing one day. I hope you enjoy. Please read and leave a comment.

P.S. Sorry enchanter, but I don't know which color Kio's eyes are. ^^'

Fandom: Loveless
Name:Beautiful disaster
Rating: T
Warnings:none

I wrote this last night. Just a little zero fic I wanted to share. It's not breathtaking, it's not fantasticaly written. There aren't  descriptions, and it's really short. I know it doesn't sound interesting, but it's supposed to be a sweet little one shot.
No warnings. I got the inspiration after I read a fic. I think it was chained_dove. It was about leaving home. It's one japanese word, but I can't remember. ^^'

I looked through my journal today, and decided......................... I DON'T LIKE IT AT ALL!!!!! So I have a question. How can I customize it (not the usual stuff,I don't like anything) and will I lose anything I've posted? Someone please answer, because I don't want to experiment with this!

I haven't posted for a long time... But, nothing unusual for me... Well, this time I had a good reason. I was really sick. I had a high temperature, my voice chords were... let's just say 'soundless'. See the picture, but you can't hear anything. My teacher told me I was as healthy as a wall... And I'm still coughing. The worst thing, I couldn't get to my computer! My beautiful computer! But I wasn't lazy. I wrote a fic. I was inspired with Enchanter's beautiful writing. You should go check Enchanter's stuff. I promised a poem... I need to post more pictures. But firstly, the fic.

Fandom:loveless

Author:Felinavaldis(I need to explain my name sometime)

Explanation: this is a different view of Seimei. It's very confusing. That's because he is confused in my story. I think I repeated that many times. It starts like a journal entry, just so you know. There's a second part to this. Well, there will be ^^'

Now the poems. I couldn't decide which one to post for enchanter, so I chose both of them. These are for you, dear!

Mellochocolat, you made me write a fic! And that's never a good thing! It's a short one. And when I say short I mean short!
I hope you're going to like it, because I don't think I did a good job. And 'Duplicate' is an excellent poem. I'm going to leave a comment. This is a Loveless fic. But I have to warn you:I have never watched nor read the manga. There is simply no way for me to get the manga and see the anime. I hope this isn't too bad.

Dedicated to you!

That's it. I hope I got this lj cut thingy.